A few months ago I finally decided that I should see a counselor. For as long as I can remember I've been entirely physiologically disconnected from how my body started to develop throughout my teens. It's a silly and super simplified analogy, but it's like I hit puberty and suddenly a third arm started to grow from my torso and two extra eye balls grew into my head - meanwhile, my brain is mapped for two arms and two eyeballs. No matter what I do mentally to adjust to that third arm or those two extra eyeballs, my brain just won't get over feeling like it's all foreign and agonizing and doesn't belong. So, back to reality and away from my silly and simplified sci-fi analogy - with my body, it's been that way for as long as I can remember. Consciously and socially, my body is awesome. But, on some subconscious level, it has always felt very foreign. Over time, this has been taking a huge toll on my self-esteem, on my ability to have intimate relationships,...
Haha, suhweet.
ReplyDeleteLMAO - you should have said, "ahhh yours does to are you?"
ReplyDeleteMonkey Outlaw: HA! Good response!
ReplyDeleteThat reminds me of the scene from Aliens, where Hudson asks Vasquez, "Hey, Vasquez...you ever been mistaken for a man?" and Vasquez responds, "No. Have you?"
that is a double booya!!
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