A few months ago I finally decided that I should see a counselor. For as long as I can remember I've been entirely physiologically disconnected from how my body started to develop throughout my teens. It's a silly and super simplified analogy, but it's like I hit puberty and suddenly a third arm started to grow from my torso and two extra eye balls grew into my head - meanwhile, my brain is mapped for two arms and two eyeballs. No matter what I do mentally to adjust to that third arm or those two extra eyeballs, my brain just won't get over feeling like it's all foreign and agonizing and doesn't belong. So, back to reality and away from my silly and simplified sci-fi analogy - with my body, it's been that way for as long as I can remember. Consciously and socially, my body is awesome. But, on some subconscious level, it has always felt very foreign. Over time, this has been taking a huge toll on my self-esteem, on my ability to have intimate relationships,...
The way you move your eyebrows while talking is very cute. Sorry for the superficial comment and harmless Internet flirting lol :)
ReplyDeleteIt's not harmless one bit! It's incredibly flattering and ego-boosting! How dare you!
Deletelol :) Did you do that eyebrow thing as you typed that comment? I bet you did...
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Oh, geez. I had no idea I even did an "eyebrow thing" until you pointed it out!
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